Yo, If you cats dont like your life. rather then topping it. do something about it you know. If ya mates are bagging ya, they aint your mates, get some new mates. get a new job you know. get a education go back to school/uni you know... I know what keeps some of my friends going throgh school is they no tomrow will be better if they try hard and do something with there life. And take something your good at like art or music and try and make something with it you know. I know its easyer said then done, but you have to remember tomrow will always be better then the worst day of your life. but you gotta live your life, not let your life live you. You reckon half the motha fuckers around have a good life. everyone wishes they had something or were someone there not. but rather then dwelling you gota make your self wat u wanna be you feel me? anyways, killing your self is the pussy way out. you gotta fight man. Peace//
all i can contribute to this thread is fuck what other people say, just do what makes you happy. speak whats on your mind and itll get you farther than you think. ive been doing this lately and its solved alot of my problems.
I don't even understand why people come to Bombing Science (of all places) to get their suicidal thoughts out. The internet as a whole is a bad place to speak about shit like this.
its a graffiti forum that has sevaral sub-forums and one is about suicide and you dont understand shit buddy...
nobody here knows who the hell i am. to them i'm just another kid. they've got nothing to win, and nothing to lose, so if they're a truly good person, they'll help, if not, i could give less of a fuck. people here know more about me than half the people i've known the majority of my life. and none of these people even know my name. that's why i come here.
yeah, theres a certain thing with not knowing who somebody actually is, but getting to know them. it makes it less akward to talk about things you normally wouldnt, just because you know that any minute, you can press a button and never talk to them again. its kinda the same with me too, ive met a few guys on here that know more about me than my "best friends" in real life do... i think bombingscience is a fine place to talk about something like this.
yeah, for a while I talked to my friends from here more than I talked to my real friends, too. I've met the coolest people on here...
i want to get out of this place. it decays people. A FUCKING LOT of shit happened today that i don't care to address, but in the midst, i went to a show and talked to one of my brother's old friends that i've known for years, and he left this town 2 years ago and moved 30 minutes away. even that far is far enough. he said his high school years here were the worst years of his life, and once he left, he was able to be peaceful and happy. he said that i need to get out because this place decays people. i see that now. i'm in worse shape today than i was couple months ago. i'm too apathetic to cry right now. i'm in the worst shape i've ever been. i don't know who i can trust. at all. i don't know who's lying. i just want to leave and not look back. just one good goodbye is all i need, and i can get the fuck out of here and start a new life. i have no friends anymore. i've had the best of friends, but i've learned i can't trust a fucking soul. i've spent too long trying to be a good person and hoping to someday cash in on karma, but reality hit me like a motherfucking bus today. no matter how much time you spend being only a good person and being patient, it doesn't do anything for you in the long run. fuck all of that. fuck my whole life. i've had the idea all wrong and i don't want it to be too late for change. fuck this place. fuck these people. fuck the karma payment plan.
i got admitted to a psych ward when i was a junior in highschool for attempted suicide. shit sucks man.... no belts, no shoes, dumb classes, sad people, lotsa pills, and locked doors. i was a weak bitch then..... the world only gets tougher.
suicide would be a dandy idea. i'd rather be dead than stuck in a hole with absolutely no way out. but i don't think it's worth it. yet. this weekend has taken a huge fucking toll on me and put me so much further down that absolutely nothing is making me even a little bit happy anymore. i look at all the kids in my school and wonder why i was one of the few around me chosen to feel like this at this age. everyone else seems so happy and pleased with their lives. this feeling is like cancer. it's spreading all throughout me, and i keep finding more and more reasons to stay down, and more and more things keeping me down. i really don't know how and when and if this will end. i just really fucking want it to soon.