Sorry for the double-post, but I just read this: I know exactly wut you mean man, I'm the same way. I'm just way too nice to disagree or defend myself... even if I'm gettin completely dissed by someone I really try not to say anything rude back, and everybody knows I'm like that and take waaay advantage of it. I lost all of my best friends because they all turned into complete assholes and I just stopped hangin out wit them. I got used to being lonely man, when ur by yourself, you can do whatever the fuk u want an nobody talks shit. Instead of hangin w/ them douchebags, try juss hangin w/ urself fer a while and find the good things in it. I dunno if it'll help u, but I got strong will (and a form of micro-autism) and never let other people bother me. I've always got my own thoughts to fall back too and as the saying goes: "I may live in my own little world, but at least they know and approve of me here."
I know what you mean about hangin' with yourself, but lately if I'm out by myself. I just get so bored and my depression gets so bad. I find my depression is the worse when I have nothin' to do.
time to yourself can be the most therapeutic thing in the world. when you're by yourself, rather than thinking about others, think about you. fuck everyone else bro. you're the only one that has your back. think about that. be prideful. fuck what people say. pride is not in any way shape or form bad. cockiness, that's another story. just be you man. i know this sounds like cookie cut bullshit, but just remember it.
after reading that it makes me feel more confident about what things i have control and don't over. thanks for posting it dude. and the one sayings pretty funny/kickass
100%, absolutely true. I know EXACTLY what you are saying. Oh, and no prob man^ PM me if ya wanna talk.
Do you guys find bombing as a good way to ease your pains and stress? Lately that's been the case with me and I don't want that turn into an addiction or my only way of dealing with it. Total deja vu by the way, have I posted this before???
I totally know what you mean... I was over 40 nights on my own just sitting from 8 pm to 3-4 am alone.. I was sitting near a transtation, next to the tracks so you know what thoughts were running through my head.. And believe me I felt bad and just wanted to disappear... It got worse since I was there with a girl and we had a great chemistry but then she just said that it would be better that we would be just friends...
^ one of my favorite things to do. I could spend all day down in the subway... (My subway was abandoned like 40 years ago, it's super dark and noone bothers u, plus there are thousands of square feet of graffiti everywhere)
around my way, if there's a spot to paint at, cops would be all over it the next day to take pictures of the latest shit. then they'd stop every kid in the town who's riding a bike to try and tell them they were getting a whole bunch of bullshit citations and arrests if they didn't rat out who did it. aint that fucked?
That is fucked. The cops are pretty chill about the subway. One time they let me and friend down there and told us to paint the department logo.
we all have had shitty times and im on anti depressants and i still have my bad moments but i get threw it and yall get threw it too just draw thats all i do when i feeel like shit makes me feel mad good
The anatomy of a school shooting, shotgun under my trenchcoat Columbiners did it, dead spoke - bloodred soaked My mind consume the doom as I walk through the school 15 people killed and over 14 wounded My name is Eric Harris, I was forever harrased, an outcast You fuck with us and now me and Dylan is pulling out gats I've been wantin to murder people Suicide is played out, if you gonna die, take people with you We've been planning this before the kids from Jonesboro did it And I wanted the world to know when people died why we did it I even killed myself but don't feel sorry for me Feel sorry for your seads as we spread the diesease Another bloodbath coming soon to a school near you Smalltown killing-spree that's organized by the youth Fuck the media, them fags be disguising the truth Dragging my name through the mud when televizing the news A bunch of ticking timebombs y'all, is more like me Overflowin with hate, bullied to get raw like me They constantly get picked on and shitted on like me You'd probably get your head blown off by a kid like me I put my mind to it and what I accomplish's frightening The right thing, no matter what you idiots might think Check it, I did that shit so idiots might think This ain't a game, the nerds that you be fuckin with might flip It's like this, what's more fun than slice wrist? Kill that teacher that you hate, spray 25 kids You'd be famous just like me if you did what I did This is the anatomy of a school shooting I see dead people, it isn't my fault that they were evil Fuck a favorite I hate everybody equal Bitch I warned y'all, didn't I? Now everybody wanna talk shit and cry asking why - Two geeks picked up guns and turned murderous All of y'all under beneath me you don't deserve to live Two nerdy kids is that a crime? why I've gotta be one of the cool kids just to walk by - without being tripped, thrown down on the ground and kicked Insulting me for no reason, I was treated like shit The teachers let it happen I've even seen some of them teachers laughing That's why I had a smile on my face when I started blastin I wasn't crazy - all of y'all were sick I was the nicest person in the world - y'all were dicks Don't even try to analyze me now you have no chance, back then - maybe you could've been my friend i've been feeling like this/thinking of this for about the past month....