man, don't do it. i know this doesn't mean shit to you cause i'm just another kid on a messageboard, but i know what you feel like. i'm right there with you. and if you were to kill yourself, that'd just be leaving behind all the other kids in your situation. instead of having it be every man for himself and only caring about yourself, try not to do that. people dealing with this shit need to band together and help eachother out instead of saying "fend for yourself, i'm leaving." i don't want to see you leave dude. there's gotta be another way around it.
Man, I know how hard it is to see a light right now, but don't do it. I'm pretty much in the exact same position, but think about what would happen if you were gone. Your parents would be devistated, and your friends would feel terrible. Just find a good friend you can confide in, just tell them how your truely feel, and that you want some help, and they can help you find a counsoler or whatever, just keep seekin' help, cause it will be worth it.
dont think because they just say "if hes gonna do it, we cant stop him" that means they dont care. it is insanely stressful for the people around you that care about you, and they feel just as bad as you do. you feel helpless about your life so you thinking killing yourself is the answer, the people that love you feel helpless because they do not know what they can say or do to stop you. its killing them to just sit and wait for you to do something dumb, they would help if they knew what to do. and there is no "right answer, this is what you need to do" type thing. it is like when someone says "my parents died in a car accident" regardless of how well you know them the best thing you can do is say "sorry, im here for you" and then just wait. samething with the peopel around you, its entirely up to you to get better, they can be there for you and help you get rides to a doctor, or just hang out with you etc, but ultimately everything depends entirely upoun you. you can bring a horse to water but you cant make it drink is kind of the same idea here. they can do all the right things, but ultimately your the one that is going to have to feel better. also you said you didnt want to talk about it because it was personal, that is fine. However, I find that with a lot of people i work with, this helps them: write down BY HAND everything that is pissing you off, and try to make it as coherent as possible. dont list things, make complete sentences with paragraph structure etc. write every thing that you wish you change in your life and everything you think is wrong with it, from big to small, small to big w/e. things like how the fan creaking annoys the shit out of you, or how you wish your mom did not have cancer etc. you dont have to show this paper to anyone, but for alot of people it puts everything into perspective. they tell me, alot of stuff they realized wasnt a real problem so they didnt feel like writing it down, then all the stuff that was serious only took up half a page. they said it made them feel better and their problems seem smaller. wow did not mean to write this much, i know alot of it wont make sense since i didnt proof it. i may fix this later. in short: please dont kill yourself, despite what you may think people will care. even if it is just random people on a message board.
ive been fucked up and been thinkin of ending it really its been a while i posted on BS my graduation from hs sucked, my birthday sucked, my family sucks i hate these assholes and i hate that we moved to louisiana so much shit i dont wanna write about it fuck life
try and channel all of that hate into something like art that you can live for and live off of. now that you are done with high school you have college or w/e to look forward to, this summer is going to be the best summer of our lives leading up to the best years of our lives. (i am also graduating this year). take a trip, or move back to where you moved from for the summer or something. find something to live for and give yourself hope for the future, we have all been in your position, you are not alone.
Man its definitely worth atleast giving it a try at getting help. I found out I suffer from bipola (think that's spelt right) and I started seeking help after coming dangerously close. Its hard to even want the help but to be honest to yourself and the people u care about. Ya should man
Like ok sorry to double post but take my story for example. As generic as it sounds. I attempted when I was 16 cause of my friend getting bashed to death infront of me by some gate crashers at a party. Slipped me back to depression and I nearly attempted but my mother came home from work early for some reason and found me just sitting there just crying as uncool as that sounds :S Its been 4 years and im thinking 8mnths since then. The experiences have only amazing since then I've had a few times where I got stressed out and upset here and there but in the last 4 years I've found my love for graff again, found a girl who makes me happy, met new great friends, got a good job, seen my big brother get married, and just overall a lot of good memorys since then. All I can think when I look back on it was... I would have missed out on soooo much. I am glad to see a lot of people take this thread seriously. Like I imagine wat was said at the start by mysfit is right. A lot of bad things can happen while writing. So depressions easy to slip into. Not to mention the crappy sleeping patterns would make us so mentally exhausted
thanks man, you dont know how much that means to me (the inspiration) im at a point where im so fucked up i dont know how to feel.. my sleeping paterns been fucked too but i know what you mean thanks
man i hate my fuckin family they make me want to get a fucking 357 magnum and just blow my fuckin head off they give me a fuckin headache like evvveryday, shit cant be good for my health right??? and oh yea, fuck everyone at my school and all the bitches that dont talk to me their peace.
no no one ='( i hate my school like 6 more days and im out there forever hopefully the real world is a lil more mature then those fucks
BLAH fuck, life is so fucking stupid. goddamnit, everything seems like its going decently, but of course, turns around. fuck, this is so fucking GAY
stick with it bro. if it was going decently, then for sure there's a good chance it'll turn around again and start going good. you just have to let the good outweigh the bad in your mind.
man, ive listened to The Anatomy of a School Shooting by Ill Bill so much lately. a week left for my school, hehe i hate school. i hate kids at my school. i hate most kids in general. i hate kasp. fucking wack ass toy is gonna die.