ailleee man, no problem.
but try and be more social,
i know you have no confidence but you'd be surprised at how people would react, people are real friendly these days man.

 

i feel you mast, i was/am in the same situation. after i lost my last girl, i couldnt even function. i hardly slept, haha and when i did id have dreams that we were still together. i cant say im over her, even now, but dude from a kid whos been trying to get back with the same girl for 8 months, i have to tell you, you're better off moving on. no matter how hard you try, you can't change how someone feels, and it sucks, but thats life. i wouldn't stick around for the ride because that shit gets rough fast. just paint chill spots, vibe to some music, it helped me alot.

 

dude man theres plenty other girls out there.
fuck her.
your better than that.
if she doesnt want you no more,
you have to accept it like garbage said, its reality man.
but when your completely gone, shes gonna see what she missed out on.

 

I think about it sometimes, like so much shit in my lief has happened, and i just pretend that it isnt that bad, and not think about it, then when i do think about it, it like fucking builds up inside you. then you just go the fuck insane. that happened to me once, i ended up going to a counceller for awhile. then i got better, now i feel shitty again. i have a good group of homies to chill with, and their cool and all, but i just dont feel happy too much, my life seems too boring. Its the same thing every day. And it gets old fast. Shit gets depressing sometimes.

 

word dude.
my councellor said the word thing to do is bottle shit up.
i cant help it.
i wanna make everyone happy, and i gotta realize that its never gonna happen.
so i bottle it up.
i explode once and a while.
it aint pretty.

 

Ya, your definetly right, it's just so hard to be confident when I feel like shit about myself. I just know havin' more friends, and/or a girlfriend would really make me feel better. My parents are really reconizing how I feel now too, last night they saw my mutilated wrist, and they were pretty concerned. They offer to help me, but really I'm the only one who can help myself, whether that is meetin' new people, or gettin' councellin', I just have to push myself I guess.

 

If the coucellin' helped, then go back, it's worth it. And as far as havin' a good support group, it really helps, so keep up with those guys. If your bored like you mentioned, this is what I do, I tell myself, what can I do to better my life. It's better than sittin' there doin' nothing, sketch, find a new hobby, you'll feel happier if your occupied and find a sence of accomplishment. Just keep pressin' on man, it'll be worth it.

P.S. sorry about the double post

 

word thanks guys. i just talked to her for about an hour and cleared a lot of things up. she's had a boyfriend for the past 3 years (about 7 or 8 diff ones including me), but i was the second longest and most serious. we were talkin about what to do for prom in a couple months, and she told me that after this, she's not having another boyfriend for a while, so we're still probably gonna go together, but just no more relationship shit. we're still gonna chill and everything, just nothing physical


im in a better mood now, but i still feel like shit.


i guess i'll get a new girl if something happens, but for now i don't feel like going out and looking for one.






and Siner, honestly and truthfully, cutting is NOT the right way to get your feelings out. i know that after you've already started, it may feel like it really is the only thing you can do to at least feel a little better, but i can't stand seeing people hurt themselves like that. my..well...ex girlfriend used to cut before she knew me, and she finally got past it and started drawing, and because of me, started painting (canvases), and even though she's still got problems, she uses that as an outlet. i'm saying this from as one writer to another, cause even if i don't actually know you in person, i really do care, don't be doing that. if not for me, then quit it for yourself.

 

lol you think im a moron...sucks for you dont it ...
lets see if you can take this seriously...FUCK YOU
if you dont like it simply put dont read it

 

Siner, I remember when I used to cut. It felt soooo good. In the worst way. You really gotta think about it. Sometimes just meds isn't enough. You gotta want to be better.
I didn't for like 2 years. I hate that I enjoyed watching myself bleed until I passed out in my bed. Or that I popped enough pills to knock me out. Later on I realized that there really isn't anything more out there. School is school you use it to get a good joba nd make money. But it's really your life. So you can choose when you want to go to school. People may say things about where you're headed...but they're not going to end up where you are. I don't know if I'm making any sense. But it was an epiphany when it hit me. all the emotional problems that hit me...well...it just seems so trivial right now because you move on, you grow up and you learn. That's all there is to life. there's nothing special about it. Just doing what you want. It's just a game.

 

the way i see it, the points of life are to learn, love, make mistakes, be happy, and at least experience depression (because if you don't, you will never really understand the true weight of happiness)

in order to attain some of these things, you have to do a little work. and hey, that work will keep you occupied for the time being.

if you've already done all these things, then just try to 1 up what you did before.

 

Hey Siner,

i just want to let you know something, you always have at least one person to turn to on this form, not matter who it is i can guarantee that you will feel at least a little better after talking to them. mate, if you need someone, just hit me up, because I'll always try to make you feel better, I'm trying to keep my head out for you and others on this forum because i don't want to see, the next big thing... go down over something little, or something that just. pushed you... you got to try get out and socialize thats the best way to find people who are interested in what you are, just a little "hello" goes a long way you know...

You know, you don't have to be the best to talk to other writers, most writers out my way would gladly accept you in and help you develop your style you know... just ask for help. and eventually you will get it from someone,

(if you want some stencil idea's or Tutorials just Private message me mate, i'll help you out =D)

Don't let life get you down,
When life gives you lemons.... Make Alcohol

Heh, well my brain hurts so, I'll catch ya on the flip side lol

If this doesn't make sense, well i tried lol

 

I think this is as good as councellin' for me, thanx for the help everyone. Like I've said before, I don't feel like my life can get much worse, so I just have to push myself to meet new people. It's just discouragin' like when I asked this girl out and to find out she has a boyfriend, and she's in my social class and act's like I never even showed a intrest in her. The worse part is I can't stop thinkin' about her, hopefully I can move on. I just want a girlfriend who can help me get through this, cause I know that lovin' someone would probaly help me at least like myself. My parents have offered to help me, and my best friend have offered to help me, but really I have to make the effort. It's hard when I want to get better, but don't give a fuck about myself. So hopefully my best friend can help me with girl's, again, thanx alot for the help everyone, it means alot to me cause I know alot of you guys have felt the pain I'm goin' through. And I haven't cut myself for a while and I know I won't again...

 

good job dude.
fuck cutting.
brings nothing bro.

 

Fuck, this isnt helping, at my dads i have this dog that i found and hes the most kick ass dog ever, but the other dogs we had didnt like him. so they attack him, and they fucking got him this time, they tore off part of his ear and fucking scratched him up good. so we have to give him away. and then the girl i like is just toying with me, she has a boyfriend but she still gives me hugs and stuff. But it makes me said i cant have her, as cheesy as that sounds. fuck everything

 

dude man.
pace yourself.
relax.
if it helps, toke up.
just dont do anything you'll regret.
think about every action you take.

 

Sorry, thanks for the help though, but i dont really know what ill regret until ive already done it usually. i dont think about half the shit i do. and i cant really help it, i just dont think things through. so everyones always yelling at me for fucking up

 

Just take a chance, you can learn from your mistakes. As far as that girl goes, just quit hanging out with her, and maybe she'll see what she is missing.

 

your not on msn so il just tell it to you on here,

if you suicide, il kill myself, than kill you when im up there for the action you did

haha andthen kill myself